Sunday, January 9, 2011

Looking Back....A House Without a Cat is Not a Home

2010 ended sadly as many of you who follow me on twitter or know me personally may have already heard.
My kitty boy went home quite unexpectedly on my birthday just before Christmas. I had him for over 12 wonderful years. I wasn't prepared to educate the kids on the subject of death, as my husband was out of town on business & I thought I was taking my cat in for a routine check up for a little problem, but what they found just couldn't be fixed.
Listening to the diagnosis, all kinds of thoughts whirled through my head as I first looked at my kitty & then into the faces of my children who didn't understand fully what was happening & wondering why we couldn't just go home with our cat & get back to the fun of preparing for the upcoming Christmas holiday. It got worse when I couldn't hold back my tears in front of the kids as I told them in a way they could understand, "the Dr. can't make him better."
I decided to just take a break from blogging & everything else online for awhile. You know I'm the type of person who always looks at the glass as being half full & this blow knocked my glass over. I didn't want to bring everyone down with my sadness...especially during 'the most wonderful time of the year'.
I have a big hole in my heart that my 20lb kitty companion used to fill. It was a really bad day & I'm not 'over it' yet, however I am improving. I have some of the greatest friends in the world & my faith has helped immensely.
Maybe this spring I'll look into fostering a kitty that needs some love. I'm not ready to adopt again, but I do have a lot of love to give.